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I Swear I'll Make It Up to You

A Life on the Low Road

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Regular Price $34.99 CAD

Regular Price $26.99

Regular Price $34.99 CAD

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Mar 8, 2016

Page Count

352 Pages




An odyssey of family, heartbreak, violence, punk rock, brokenness, broke-ness, sex, love, loss, drinking, drinking, drinking, and an unlikely savior: distance running.

A misfit kid at the best of times, Mishka Shubaly had his world shattered when, in a twenty-four-hour span in 1992, he survived a mass shooting on his school’s campus, then learned that his parents were getting divorced. His father, a prominent rocket scientist, abandoned the family and their home was lost to foreclosure. Shubaly swore to avenge the wrongs against his mother, but instead plunged into a magnificently toxic love affair with alcohol.

Almost two decades later, Shubaly’s life changed again when a fateful five-mile run after a bar fight inspired him to clean up his life. And when he finally reconnected with his estranged father, he discovered the story of his childhood was radically different from what he thought he knew.

In this fiercely honest, emotional, and self-laceratingly witty book, Shubaly relives his mistakes, misfortunes, and infrequent good decisions: the disastrous events that fractured his life; his incendiary romances; his hot-and-cold career as a rock musician; meeting his newborn nephew while out of his gourd on cough syrup. I Swear I’ll Make It Up to You is an apology for choices Shubaly never thought he’d live long enough to regret, a journey so far down the low road that it took him years of running to claw his way back.

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“In this memoir of darkness and redemption, singer/songwriter [Mishka] Shubaly describes his virulent romance with alcohol and his struggle to escape the toxic embrace by way of long-distance running.” —Publishers Weekly

I Swear I'll Make It Up To You is a mercilessly honest trip to the very center of alcoholic despondency, followed by a perfectly messy, self-deprecating squirm toward the light. An elegant and eminently human account of what it means to struggle, despair, dream and ultimately find meaning in an uncomfortable world. This is the memoir I wish I could write. Wish I had written. And for that I will always resent this author I call a friend.” —Rich Roll, bestselling author of Finding Ultra

“If Mishka Shubaly can trade in his pills and booze for a pair of Nikes, there's hope for every addict and drunk out there. This book is rehab for the soul.” —Cat Marnell

“We all have heroes. I would never want to imagine Tom Waits going to therapy or Bukowski running a 10k. In my heart, Mishka Shubaly will always be spilled over the bar next to me and playing on the jukebox of my soul.” —Doug Stanhope
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